Broken

Today God, I ask you to break my heart open into a million pieces.  Put it back together correctly,  because I think I have misplaced a few pieces that I just can't seem to fit together.  These gaps are causing pain that only comes out in anger.  I don't want to be angry.  I want to feel whole and content.  Happy.  Fix me Lord.  Fix these holes left behind from things of my past and present with your love and patience.  I can't move forward without you.  

Amen 

"Machines never come with any extra parts you know.  They always come with the exact amount they need, so I figured if the whole entire world was one big machine, I couldn't be an extra part.  I had to be here for some reason and that means you have to be here for some reason too." 
             -The movie HUGO 

Drowning

Do you think it is possible to drown in noise?  Sometimes I think I may just suffocate from holding my breath sometimes.  My two year old and five year old make it hard to live in peace and harmony.  What is that anyway?  I never thought the phrase, "don't pee on your sister" would ever come come out of my mouth.  Actually, it's a common phrase around my house.  It's an all out comedy act around here.  

Here's to faith that this too shall pass, hope that my my children grow up well rounded and that they love God.  Until then, I'm holding my breath. 

Living a bit more simply.

I've been thinking about my life in general.  What do I want for myself, my children.  I want to live more simpler.  I want to live with less t.v. and internet.  I want to know less about the cruel people in this world.  If I knew them less, I would fear them less.  If I feared them less, I could help more and not be shaken to the core every time I tuned into the local news station. I do not want to be uninformed and ignorant, but just more in tune with myself and the people that surround me.  


This life is about putting our faith in something good, hoping for the best, and loving each other and our god.  Not about hating or fearing our enemies- the cruel ones on this earth.  It's about loving each other and passing that love on to others. 


Make your own news.  Let it be filled with good things.  Allow God to shine through, even if it's the smallest crack.  A small crack of light in the dark can be very eye catching.  Let people be drawn to you and take an empty hand.  Life is hard.  Share your light, that light is God, and God is Love.